Thursday, October 11, 2012
This weekend, well Friday specifically, will be the day I won't have worry about her leaving to be two bleeding hours away from me. Unfortunately, however we'll be living under my father's roof and honestly I'm not really looking forward to it...but the good thing is while we're living there we virtually have no bills to pay, save gas and whatever we want food-wise, but aside from that...no utilities, no rent and so on. So, that basically means we will be able to save a ton of money so we can get a place.
June and I are going to do everything in our power to get our own place and truly make it ours. Are we going to settle there?
Eh...possibly and possibly not...
That depends wholly on what exactly it is we find to rent out for right now. We would like to find a place that's cheap enough and cost-efficient..but we also do not want a rat-hole, and both she and I have lived in less-than-desirable houses...so, we're going to our best to make it the best we can.
With the wheel of the year nearing the peak of its rotation, we're trying to think of what exactly we both need to let go to better ourselves. We're also trying to figure out how we're supposed to prepare for the dark months ahead.
When I'm with her, she makes me feel like I can conquer anything, and together we can do just that, accomplish bloody anything.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Nothing has changed between the princess and I, mind you, but we have both been through some rather bothersome times together. If it weren't for her, in actuality, I truly do not believe I would have made it through without her. And through our hardships, I believe we've grown stronger, and with each waking day, I am grateful to spend it with her, even in spite of all the bull-shit that most of the time seems to bloody follow me.
She is not currently at the house, she is work tonight, which is bloody aggravating because we do not have an actual day off together this week, only a few hours each day and when we sleep on certain nights, which in my opinion is complete rubbish. That of course most certainly does not mean I do not enjoy our times together, because I do, as all of you know. It's the fact that our times together always seem so bloody rushed because of our schedules now.
Such is the sad fate of the world, it's quite literally impossible for me to support the both of us unless I made twelve figures a year, and unfortunately enough for me, I hardly make a single figure in fact I'm not even bloody sure I make that. The important thing is, I have her in my life and that makes everything all the better.
She's texting me occasionally when she gets the time at work, and I am counting the hours until she gets home, because I do miss her. I missed her the moment she left the vehicle to go to work, as I watched her leave, it pained me. But, in a few hours she'll be back home, and I can wrap my arms around her in a lovely embrace, cuddle up against her and pull her close as we both drift into slumber.
I'll admit I still have a fear sometimes when I wake up that all these past few months have been naught but a dream, and luckily, so far that has not been the case. There's no bloody person in this world who truly understands how much she means to me, even she is skeptical still, but this princess, this lovely woman of mine I adore with all my heart and nothing is ever going to change that; and most certainly no one is ever going to take her away from me.
I love you, darling, and I cannot wait to see you when you get off work. As for me, I'm going to get a little sleep because as you know, I do have to work in the evening tomorrow and I also want to be attentive enough to my surroundings to make sure I get there safe to pick you up, and in return brings us back to the house safely.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
So it's now been almost a month or literally a month since the princess and I started living together. My best friend and I traveled up to the hell-hole she was living in and brought her back down here.
When I saw her for the first time in person, I was beyond shy. I stuttered when I spoke, I was awkward and I didn't talk too much either. She actually thought I didn't like her anymore, silly girl, you took my breath away and continue you to do so every time I see your lips curve into a smile and spread across your beautiful face.
Every moment has been a gods' send and I treasure every little slice of it. I remember waking up sometimes throughout the night to make sure she was still on the line, whereas now I often find myself sometimes waking up and looking over and giving her hand a gentle squeeze...and when she gently squeezes back or smiles with a soft moan it makes my heart quiver and swell. For awhile there, I was afraid to go to sleep, especially the ride back to Macross City. I fell asleep with my head in her lap with her hands softly running through my hair, and she told me in my sleep I took her hand into mine and gently squeezed. She didn't sleep until the last few hours of the trip, and like her with my hand running gently through her hair.
I still remember the first time I actually held her hand and was apparent of it...and it still sends shivers down spine and I'm filled with, well, for a lack of word, butterflies.
And when I was actually able to feel her lips against my own again; well, I'm bloody well sure you all know just how wonderful it was for me. Also, like every time I interlace my fingers betwixt her own or take her hand softly into mine... every time her lips press against mine I fee; as though everything had transformed and become enchanted as if there is nothing else in the world but her.
She went to her parents' house today, well yesterday to spend the weekend with them before her birthday, which-so happens to be Monday, everyone. I also am going to spend time with all of them, actually tonight after work, I'm driving to spend the night and spend the day with her and her family for her birthday.
I made a dessert for the occasion and I bloody hope everyone likes it, it tastes delicious to me, but then again I adore Bailey's Irish Cream anyhow, so, here goes nothing, eh?
Good night princess, it's going to be difficult to sleep without you by my side tonight...but, in my dreams and when I close my eyes, you're still here. Sleep well, love, and I'll see you later today.